Some days, you feel like wringing your own neck  to get yourself out of miserable situations.

Most of the time, it’s during those situation when people waste time pausing and asking you questions that they themselves would have the answers if they could just bring themselves to do good research of whom to ask. That is not me. But of course we know that they are asking me that so I could politely offer to deal with such matters, make arrangements – which I used to do.

Emphasis on used to. Past tense. I’m not that person anymore. I do not know where people get the idea that I have the time to deal with these things.

What’s worse is when people drone on just to get to the point where they would request you to deal with some things. Yes, I really have all the time and energy to do every request. Did you want that delivered to your doorstep with some big freaking ribbon?! Like in an hour? It’s not like I have things to do. Definitely looking forward to dealing with your request. 

I am beat. Done with all the niceties. Would really appreciate having one week pass without requests for information that can be retrieved in the email inbox archive or on the net or via the phone. All it takes would be moving those fingers and allow brain cells some processing.

No, I cannot supervise that layout because I have papers to check and articles to publish.

No, I  really do not have time to edit those papers that you should be the one editing because it’s part of your job.

No, the paper cannot be released yet because there isn’t enough funds.

No, I wish you wouldn’t waste my time asking me details about that because in the end, you forget it anyway and do anything but what I suggested – which later would cause some concerns because you didn’t listen to the suggestion and it would bring me no joy to say I told you so – not that I would do that.

I am struggling to cling to that inner peace as advised by a good friend. But this week made it really really hard. I’m not giving up. Never giving up. Just needed to get it out.

How can so many things be so wrong overlapping in a week?!

Then again, there a good things – great things that happened. I just cannot recall them at the moment. But I know there a great ones this week. I had great laughs but they were so fleeting. Break in between moments of dread and time wasting and clinging to that inner peace.

It required greater effort to maintain some cool. Moments of dismissive, even abrasive behavior. Not something I’m proud of.

During days like this, one needs to look at a bigger problem, a concern more grave, or a situation way more unfortunate than what one is facing. And just like that, frustration turns to embarrassment. What right do I have to rage on what now seems to be such trivial matters.

It is so easy to be lost in one’s own problem. To keep one grounded, one only needs to look at the person next to you, the neighbor, the passer by, a friend – to realize how fortunate one actually is.

Of course, there will be other days like this – and on I would rant and complain. But at the end of the day, I hope to rid myself of negativity and calmly find that place of inner peace. It will never be easy. In the future, locating that place would be more tricky but it won’t be in the realm of impossibility.

 

Not all morning starts out smoothly. There are those select days when something so little shatters your morning of tranquil. You usually find your self tapping noisily spewing words of sarcasm with the intent of at least causing someone some level of unease for ruining what could have been one of the better mornings.

Then again, it takes greater will – and time – to sit back and let the thoughts clear. Coffee is always helpful with that. Then go back to refining the message you were composing earlier.

It’s really up to you how you want your mornings to go. There will always be something that’d piss you off this early in the day. There will definitely be no shortage on that. Still, it’s up to you to decide whether you let it ruin the morning or say deal with such matters after you have cooled down and have regained your rational thinking.

A couple of deep breaths would be great with that coffee. Once you are tapping the keyboard keys more softly – and comfortably, then perhaps there is hope for what remains of the day.

I choose to have a better morning 🙂

Batanes Day 1/6. A tour of Batan

The freezing wind and a drizzle welcomed me to Basco. Made a mental note to thank the cousin for the reminder to bring thick clothes.

The plane landed after eight in the morning. Notified the cousin that we have landed. He said he’ll pick me up at the airport. The cousin has lived in Batanes for 14 years. He married a local and set up home in Basco.

It turned out that I didn’t need to notify the cousin that we have landed. Everyone in Basco knows when a plane is landing. The sound of the breaks can even be heard from their home.

The cousin set me up in my hotel and then introduced me to his wife during breakfast.

This cousin was one of the “cool” ones. We followed him around when he came for a visit back in the hometown. Fishing, cock fight, photography, and cooking-eating were his major interests. Learned a lot of sauces and dishes from him. We looked forward to his visits because it meant delicious food prepared by him during his entire stay. Needless to say, he was very welcome in the hometown.

I knew the cousin’s family would be busy so I didn’t expect that they have arranged my entire stay.

Spent the entire first day on an road trip around Batan Island – Basco, Mahatao, Ivana, and Uyugan. Kept the van door open to let the cold air in. There was definitely no need for air conditioning during these months. Even the locals say it is cold.

The morning itinerary included a tour of the Basco Lighthouse in the Naidi Hills, Santo Domingo de Basco Church, and Valugan Boulard Beach. One of the great things about having the cousin was that he takes your photos as he gives you the tour 😀 So this time, I actually have photos of me during this travel. Good thing because I’m still working on my selfie skills.

The afternoon was spent on a road trip to Ivana, Basco Communal Pastureland, and Diura Fishing Village. The view from the road is enough a treat for anyone visitors.

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Basco Lighthouse
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View from the top of Basco Lighthouse

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Valugan Boulder Beach

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Japanese Tunnel
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View of Mt. Iraya from PAGASA Weather Station
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Mt. Carmel Church
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House of Dakay in Ivana
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Honesty Store in Ivana
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San Jose de Ivana Church

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Basco Communal Pastureland
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Sunset at the viewing deck

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